The guy and happy and cut short

Finally a good (ish) dream that wasn’t all horrible and sad and scary. Mostly. Some details I don’t recall. I was with a friend maybe holie? And we were at maybe a hotel or restaurant or pool or ? There was a guy. I think there was some other guy that had liked me or I liked or someone I was dating? I don’t know but this other guy, holie decided she liked and was excited to try to get. Meanwhile he showed major interest in me and when I noticed I also noticed he was handsome and tall and kind and attentive and etc etc etc and wanted to see me again and was warm and hugged well and was intelligent and all the things I’ve hoped I’d ever find. He was going to come back to meet us and holie was excited to see him not even realizing he was into me and definitely not realizing I was also feeling him. I remember feeling really conflicted because I wanted what finally seemed to be something good in my life with him…but also feeling like I would be a bad friend if I did that because she would be upset. Even though he wasnt at all into her but was into me. So I felt good but bad at the same time and didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t even just be happy and be like I’m sorry but he is into me and I am also into him so I am not going to step aside for you. I wasn’t sure what I was going to do but at least part of me for the first time in a while felt hopeful and happy and excited as a woman and not scared or used or alone etc etc I felt attractive and seen and possibly someday maybe loved. I didn’t get to even see what was going to happen because Parker woke me up knocking shit off my dresser on purpose so I would wake up and feed him. I just wish the one sort of happy dream or even moment I’ve had in so long could have just at least not ended so fast or even before the good part came. But who knows, I’d probably have blown it anyway. 😢