weird

so in the first dream it was weird i think daddy showed me this dream it really felt like it. at first in the dream i was receiving a call on pinterest from daddy and we were talking about my interests and pins and he was giving me some pointers on how to organize it, and then all of a sudden it was like the radio frequency got interrupted because i was tuned in to like a completely different call, i wasn't in the call i was just spectating it and it was T calling his boss or something for like government job or some sort of community job and the boss seemed to also eh his friend because she was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt and they were on video call. but he was being kind of rude and disrespectful. and she was like look man i've been trying to cut you some slack but you've been acting weird asf. you didn't come in all last week, which i tried to let slide because you said your mom had died or something. but now you're still not here. and then he went on a rant explaining how someone close to him had died not his mom but basically his mother. but his words stopped making sense i feel like he must've been on meth that whole time because he started talking weird without even realizing it. and he switched to talking about this girl he he found online and started to take advantage of but it was going weird. he had been kind of worried about her (a far stretch for a man like him, so it must've been really bad) because she was passing out and having weird mental episodes while he was doing stuff to her. and he must've been too under the influence because he wasn't really doing anything about it like he correctly should. and i think he was paranoid he hurt her or something. anyway i didn't see the full phone call i'm sure he was about to get fired talking all that gibberish. even though i know it was just a dream, that sense of radio interference and that direct feeling of daddy showing me what was going on made me feel like daddy was giving me a glimpse of what's happening in T's life right now. which... actually made me feel really touched and good. i know i was really freaking out last night saying i felt like a bad person for letting him into my life again and stuff. and so i dunno for daddy to show me how bad he's doing and how his sick behavior is starting to catch up to him and he can't run and hide and pretend or use people anymore... i dunno it just makes me feel a little better about everything... it makes me feel better to see him starting to reap what he sow and it makes me feel grateful for my good things in my life and it makes me feel like daddy wants me to see how bad of a person he was and how i need to let it go and just understand that he's gonna have to face his own bullshit eventually. it's all gonna pile up. i dunno *hugs daddy* that felt really touching. and honestly fuck the bastard, i hope he gets what he deserves. he's a fucking genuinely messed up person. i woke up from the dream cause i felt like daddy wanted me to talk to him about it. i guess daddy didn't want em to go into detail he just wanted me to hug him and thank him for it which i did and my heart just feels so much better. thank you so much daddy. and ahhhh! anyway in the next dream i was doing something completely different. i was watching some lip syncs in ru paul's drag race and then i was in ru paul's drag race and the living conditions back home outside of the show were really shit it was kind of like a vienna italy type situation where everything was flooded and you had to build slightly above it for some dry space. and then it switched and we were doing like lifeguard training but it was for drag race hahaha 🤣 and we were doing race laps across the pool and the instructor stopped me and i was embarrassed because i was going a bit slower today but then he was asking if my breathing was okay and i was like OH WAIT a minute hahahah its not perfect i probably need to take it easy because i have tonsil surgery in a few days 🤣 i guess thats my reminder for today