Zoe Dad Becky Terpstra Lana Angie Bleeding And Drunk Puking Tall Guy

A party in Rebecca sue knights yard? And house? Ryan knight was there. Lots of people. Terpstra was there with fancy beer. I was having a good time. All of a sudden Zoe is there. Right away she says mom can I come back I love you I need you please? And I’m like in shock. It’s too loud too many people. I say can we go talk somewhere else it’s too loud so we go to get up and as we’re starting to walk I say of course you can honey I love you! I was afraid to answer right away and but I just couldn’t help it. Right as I said that she says you’re abusive and did all this stuff but I love you anyway and Lana hates me. Which immediately ruined the moment for me and makes me wish I hadn’t answered so fast. I respond what?! And as we’re like walking or whatever I am bleeding through my pad. Like non stop. I go to find Becky for a pad. Can’t find her at first then she says nope she doesn’t have a pad when i find here somewhere in like an upper attic kind of cove. So I’m bleeding like a ton. Upset about Zoe, go outside see my sister and when I see her eyes I try to communicate visually and also scowl or something sort of. Time is weird in this dream lots of segments and seem out of order. I did wake up once and was able to go back to it right away. I think prior to all that I was out back with dad. We were sitting there talking and these giant cicadas were coming and landing. Two land in front of me on the concrete and he goes yeah and they bite. Just then one lands on my left pointer and like cling grasps on with huge claws and digs in. And I can’t get it off. I turn to dad to help and he’s got one too. I grab the one on me with my whole hand as hard as I can and try to rip pry its claws to rip it off of me but it’s like not coming off. I get like the top half of its body off by sheer force ripping as it’s clawed into my finger and super painful. I was in pain but just kind of like yeah ok well… Then there’s this tree. Angie collas gets to the party and literally sees me and comes running and gives me a hug as if we’re super best friends. Some drunk tall guy but I knew him, by the tree we’re all around who was slamming booze before starts projectile puking everywhere and walking and doing it again. I kept trying to like go away from him but he kept being the same direction toward where I was or was going. Meanwhile, or prior? My dad and aunt were going to leave so they were over near ish to that tree but on the driveway out…in cars but actually on foot? I could see them pointing either direction when I was trying to see which way they were heading. Which I was supposed to tell someone else? Seemed like they were going somewhere we knew or I knew but not home. Like grandma’s maybe? But not her real place but like in the country or whatever. Last part I remember and this was in the middle somewhere. Lana was out back or something in the party but was doing something? Her son who was a baby was inside on the stairs alone and we were all supposedly just supposed to keep an eye on him? He fell off backwards, almost choked on something? Don’t exactly recall those two things but sort of. I remember feeling like Jesus take care of your own kid if you’re such a great mom or a mom at all. And she had no idea where he was etc. It was an emotional dream and the first where my dads been and the moment with Zoe where she said she wanted to be with me her mom and loved me and hated them and needed me…I just was so happy for a moment. I couldn’t believe it. Even though in real life I’ve been feeling similar and been getting the same messages. But I never get to dream of them or of anything that feels good. Parker woke me up knocking shit off my dresser. :( I wish she would tell me she needs me and wants to come home and I wish I could see my dad again. :( :( :(