mew

lots of themes of rape and abuse not being validated or acknowledged... dream started in this strange latinx motel... then dream was in this high school where my actions were misunderstood. i beat up this girl for invalidating my trauma. some people were on my side some weren't. then there were these dance-off type things where the different cool people showed off their skills and talents. (some people in this school were still friends with my abuser. also i had also gotten some sort of famous doing music vids of my rap verses) haha at one point i was playing that song from that subliminal with the evil eyes in it... (never feel like the man of the hour always feel like the man of the year) and i was showing her how it went well with her swim routine... then towards the end of the dream it was like this super emotionally but not physically graphic hyper artistic trippy visual representation of rape and trauma through this book or complex animation. it showed this hollowness pain and hatred that it created in her. then when she went to find a friend to help relieve her and find healing, (who ended up being a fairy) it was kind of abusive because she would be triggered into trauma response and the fae would fight back not understanding. so the fae tried to take them both back in time in sort of a petty way to be like "your trauma wasn't even that bad" but then the fae was stunned to find the years of sexual trauma. and the complexities of the abuser sort of self victimizing in a way that almost makes you feel for them.