wtfff!!! :D

in my first dream my friend was doing this huge concert and for some reason her exotic dancer couldn't perform cause she was too high on xannies or something and i volunteered to be the entertainer even tho i hadn't learned any tricks... and the night went well. we recorded it all on youtube, it was like a 30 min session. it was all a bit janky, a bit cringy. i wasn't dressed very feminine even tho i tried to, cause we we were in a rush. but i did way better than i expected, i stayed up on the pole the whole time and even did some crazy tricks i didn't know i could do! i was super proud of myself. (also the song was 23 by wiz khalifa) but i was kind of not feeling the janky, messy moments. part of me really wanted a do-over to try again the next day. asking her if it might be better to re-record it now that we've rehearsed. luckily the next day was my lucky day, and her entertainer was out of sorts again. this time the concert was way bigger and more extreme. it wasn't just like a pink bouncy castle party vibe. it was this giant rave with huge neon lights, speakers, it was almost nighttime just past sunset. the stage and pole was huge and much taller. there was a ginormous crowd, with people in glowing outfits, some holding flags and even little ones running around. the performance started and this rock music started playing, reminiscent of a mix of "barricuda" and "she's got looks that kill" and OHHH my god 0.0 it was only my second time dancing, but it was like a scene out of a movie. there's no way to describe it. i was climbing up and down that pole, swinging around and around and pulling tricks like a professional, like a professional athlete. at one point i was feeling the alice in chains vibe cause of the rock music. i couldn't believe myself as i was up there but it just felt so good and natural, like i was just in the flow of things. and i LOVED performing. i could feel myself blowing myself and the audience away. i dunno how i was doing all of those tricks with relatively low fitness (for the amount needed to pull all of that off for as long as i did) and virtually no pole experience or knowledge. but it was absolutely beautiful. i was dressed way prettier. i wasn't always 100% perfect but i just kept climbing up in down in a perfect flow, twirling the pole in all different graceful bending moves. there's no way to describe how good it felt in the dream, like my body felt so good. i felt it as the performance ended, even tho i wasn't perfect the audience was amazed. they went wild. the recording for my friends concert was absolutely perfect. i went to rewind in back to watch it back and i was blown away even more than before. i didn't even recognize myself. it all looked so planned, so perfectly coordinated and badass. the rock music started and i ran up to the pole, looking all cute, adorable and gremlin-y. i suddenly lept on and started climbing. (for some reason in the recording instead of a normal pole it looked like a nuclear reactor or giant 100 year old tree and i was climbing the side of it like a spider monkey) and then i suddenly lept up, grabbed the side and launched myself upwards, twisting upside down and doing this crazy rock and roll fancy upside down split before falling back, catching myself, and starting to twist around the pole and get into the flow again. i was like what the fuck??? i looked back on the video from yesterday, and even though i was crazy good in that one, this just knocked it out of the ballpark. it was like i was on a different planet. i hadn't trained or done anything within that time frame. how has this happened? this phenomenon was insane and i planned to post the journey on youtube, as i had filmed and vlogged the whole experience both days with my friends asking newbie me for help as evidence. it was so crazy! i could feel myself practicing at the end of the dream, just enjoying the pole so much it didn't even feel like practice or an active workout. i just felt so at home on there. and then i was finally learning some new tricks. a professional had watched my video and was equally amazed. she had noted my uneducated technique, and said that all of my upper body technique was strangely perfect while i made the most mistakes in how my shins and feet would grip the pole. and she was teaching me how to grip with your chest and arm muscles and then prop up by the side of your knee: and spin. but ohhh my god i can't explain how good it felt. now that im awake it all fading away, but it genuinely felt so good and natural in my body, look therapy.